i wrote down my life in hoping that it will be forgotten
" the supreme rules of life is to adapt without compromising "
" a path is something you create as you walk it. The ground you've trodden hardens, and that's what form your path. You're the only one who can create your own path. Walk on your own. If you haven't give up yet, that is.."
" be strong enough to let it go , and patient enough to wait for what you deserve"
nampak tak bende pelik dlm peti ais tu..Name si gemok tu Oyen the Boyot.. sebab die boyot sangat..wahahahaahaha..saje nak show off kat sini..wink..wink..wink..sekian
“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.” ― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower The above quote had deep meaning for me. I mean, like real deep. Around the time those quote posted on my own FB wall, I receive a heart breaking news, not that i'm not inform before hand, it just that, it hit me harder than it should. In so many ways, I had prepared, literally, my body and soul, for that time to come. And even how much I had prepared, how strong I had become, and how busy I tried to distract my mind, it still hurt me deeper than it should. I tried so hard to pretend everything is okay, I'm okay, I guess. But when all the 'evident' presented before me, I just couldn't make myself to look at it. I'm afraid that I will freak out and loosing everything I had prepared. It just scared me. I just scared to face the fact that my very own heart already broken, since long time ago, and he, May Allah bless him, had happily found someone that able to patch his broken heart. Figure. "and so, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be" - what a masterpiece~
P/s : It's already 1 month since i start working at UPM. It's kinda awesome yet scary. To many responsibility and I sometime forgot that I'm not a student anymore. For me to be able to fight through all this, its all thanks to my HEROes (to Allah, whom i can only cry to, to depend to, anytime anywhere; my ibu and ayah, who keep on becoming my strength even though I already thought of shut my self at the corner; to my family & friends, who keep their trust & faith in me when I already give up; and of cause to me, who know when to cry, when to seek help, when to fight, when to give up, when to smile, and when to trust in my self, thank you. You are my Hero. (^,^)
Assalamualaiakum,
Just a few minute ago, I randomly browsing the YouTube channel and found this one video by the title " GPTD: Ahmad Ammar dlm kenangan (1993-2013)". i was so touch by the video and i can't stop crying. i did't know him, but yet it broke my heart just to see it. and there is one poem by Imam Syafie that he read, and i end up to like it ;
dan tiadalah duduk setempat bagi orang yang cerdik
dan beradab itu dianggap sebagai rehat
tinggalkanlah tanah air dan mengembaralah
berkelanalah, engkau akan dapat pengganti orang yang kamu tinggalkan
berusahalah,kerana keindahan hidup itu ada pada berpenat-penat
aku melihat air yang tenang bertakung, mencemar kandungannya sendiri
sekiranya ialah mengalir, ia akan baik
sekiranya ia tidak mengalir, tercemar
Allah really know what goes inside my mind, what did broke my heart. He give me sign, show me reason and mend my broken heart.
" Verily after each difficulty, there's a relief".
masalah yg berlaku, aq nih sikit la punyer heartless or pretend to be..and somebody da smpai limit nk meletop die..ksabaran tahap xingat dunia..maybe i'm pushing him too much..who knows..xckp xtau..
aq nih bajet je relax..tapi belek hp hari2..typical reaction bile org prempuan gado..wlpn dulu abis kuat aq denied...cit..aq hilang aura da nih..bkan ilang aura je..hilang sabar, hilang rase, hilang akal (?)..
wahai ego yg tinggi mngunung, cam ne nk bagi ko kecik skit..susah le aq nk bagi chance kt diri sendiri supaya jdi lembut ati n mngalah..lagi2 klau bab2 cam nih..tapi aq mngalah da kot..aq first with happy Ramadhan kat die..